Just Thinkin'

I've been thinking a lot about the future lately. My life is finally going a way I like (aside, of course, from the whole messy "custody" battle thing), so it's really got me thinking more about ... later on in life. Like right now, I'm living at my dad's house. That is the first thing that's really got to change. Don't get me wrong, it's not like I don't like living here -- I love seeing my parents and my sister every day, they love seeing Aden as much as they have been, and Aden loves seeing them. But it's just not ... ideal. I don't get to see Aden as much as I'd like, and he doesn't get to stay overnight with me nearly enough. So my living situation is definitely the first change I'll be making in the future. And know what? I've already got plans to do it. Yeah, for once in my life, I'm making future plans. Look at me! I'm a grown-up! Well ... almost. Ha ha! Anyway, yeah, I'm making serious moving out plans, and I'm stoked about it. While I won't be living on my own (I just can't afford to), I will be living with people I definitely trust with me, and especially with Aden. I'll move to the city with three of the people I trust most, both with me and with Aden. They're all very accepting of Aden, so I know it will work out very well. We're hoping to get a place by the end of summer, so it's really not too far in the future!

So there's the moving out issue taken care of ... or at least, plans for moving out. From there, I don't really know what comes next. I think that I kind of want to go back to school. For what, I don't quite know yet, but I'm finally feeling like I want to DO something with my life. I have a job I love right now, and that's starting to show me that I really want a CAREER I love, that I can do forever. Work has shown me that, and even more so, Boyfriend has shown me that. He's about to finish college, and he's making me so proud -- I kind of want a reason for him to be proud of me too! And, of course, I want Aden to be proud of his mom. That's important too.

Do you want to know what I'd really sort of like to be? It's something I've considered on and off for probably my whole life, in one way or another ... and I'm back to considering it again. I'd really sort of like to be a journalist. What do you guys think? I mean ... judging by my writing on here, do you think that's something I could do? I know you can really leave comments in my blog -- I should really try and figure out why that doesn't work -- but you all would have your ways of telling me somewhere else. I could really use some opinions here!

Yeah, I've got a lot on my mind lately, regarding the future. I've never really thought about that stuff before, at least not as in depth as I have been lately. It's kind of scary to think about sometimes, but it's pretty exciting at the same time. See? This whole breaking up thing has sort of pushed me into growing up, and I actually want to. I love it.