Baby Fever Never Goes Away

Yes, I still have baby fever. Like crazy. And of course, my job doesn't help at all. Seeing all those great-looking pregnant women, new babies ... and the worst one: pregnant women with kids around Aden's age -- i.e, exactly what I want.

Just now, I found out on facebook that a friend from years ago is pregnant with her second baby. Her daughter is going to be a year old in December. This pregnant friend is just about 6 months younger than I am, or something like that ... so, about my age. I have a few friends in similar situations: My best friends from elementary school, who's daughter is a few months younger than Aden; Richard's sister, who has a 21-month old daughter and is due in 5 weeks ... and she is only 3 years older than I am; and there are a couple more, I'm sure.

I hate to say it, but I'm jealous of those friends. I don't know how many of those second children were actually planned ... since none of the first ones were ... but it doesn't matter. I'm jealous.

I'm doing my best to curb my baby fever, since there's nothing I can do about it until spring of next year ... and that's if whatever is wrong with me is not a huge issue. Sometimes, though, I want to just forget that something is wrong at all and just try for a baby anyway ... but I would never forgive myself if that baby wasn't healthy because of the problems I have going on ... I would be so selfish then, I think.

Ugh ... be patient, Kayla.


In other news ... my feet are KILLING me.