Abnormal, and My New Job

My doctor called with the results of my pap the other day. Abnormal again. So I have to see a specialist. I'm scared, but I'm trying not to think of it. Doctor said it'll probably be in October or November.

The only thing I'm really concerned about -- well ... the thing I'm the most concerned about -- is how whatever is wrong with me will affect my ability to have more kids. I would hate if I couldn't have another child because of what's wrong with me or because of the treatment for whatever is wrong. I guess I would just have to be thankful that I at least have one kid.

Oh well ... we will see in a couple months what will have to happen ...


Anyway ... I started my job at Babies R Us yesterday!

I really liked it. It's quiet, so it's not too stressful ... but it's not SO quiet that I run out of things to do (like a couple of my previous jobs). It'll take some getting used to, being on my feet for awhile -- yesterday was only 5 hours, as is today and Monday, but it will take me a bit to get used to that again. And it was hard staying there until 10 ... and not getting home until 10:30-ish. But again, I'll get used to it.

The only negative thing about it is this: Seeing all those new babies and pregnant women all the time will NOT be good for my baby fever! It was hard seeing all those preggos yesterday ... and all the cute baby stuff ... yikes! But, I'll just have to deal with it. After all, I won't be getting pregnant anytime soon, with the whole abnormal thing again. Ugh ...

Oh well ... I am looking forward to working again tonight!