The Bitterness of a Grouchy Ex-boyfriend

Right now, I'm getting more and more stressed and I'm afraid I'm just going to ... blow up. Everything is building up on top of everything else and nothing is getting solved. I have no outlet other than here, and I have a feeling it's going to end in disaster. Right now, I feel like I can't have everything I need, and I'm going to have to let go of something ... but I refuse to, and that's only adding to the stress. I'm so on edge, and I'm not sure how long it'll be before I have to dive off. Just when I think it's getting a little better and I can back up, something else happens that just pushes me closer. I do not handle stressful situations well, and that seems to be how it is lately -- just one stressful situation after the other, overlapping and getting worse and worse.

Aden's dad is really the mastermind behind it all. He gets mad about things he shouldn't even care or know about, and then he becomes vengeful and spiteful and just ... mean. He's on this kick lately of trying to get me to willingly leave Aden's life for good, and just leave them alone ... which obviously is not going to happen. He is also threatening to get child support from me, which he and I BOTH agreed we wouldn't do. He knows full well that I can't afford to do that, especially if life goes as planned, and I know he can't either. We were both in agreeance of that. But now, apparently that's changed. I think it's because I have been giving him around $400 per month to pay off my phone bill, and he NEEDS that money. Once I'm done paying him off (which will hopefully be after two more paycheques), he won't have that few hundred he uses to get by. He KNOWS damn well that I can't keep that up, yet he is set on screwing me over. I only leave myself with about $150, $200 a month, and I use every penny -- once I'm no longer living with my parents, I OBVIOUSLY can't live off $200 a month to my name, if he were to get child support. Besides, no court would ever let him do that -- I'm pretty sure the most he could get from me is one or two hundred a month, and that won't help him with shit.

Last night a lot went down that really sent me downhill, stress-wise. He began texting me asking when I'd be home, if I'd be home that night. I ALWAYS go home on Sundays, because Aden comes over Monday morning. I'm quite sure it's none of his business if I come home immediately after work -- as long as I'm home to greet Aden when he gets here, it shouldn't matter to him. But oh, it did. He texted me around ten o' clock asking if I was home, and I said no, but I would be. Did he leave it at that? Of course not. He began to call me irresponsible, telling me I'm a bad mother and things like that. All because I wasn't home at ten the night before Aden was coming over. He also told me he wouldn't be able to drive Aden over because his license is gone (long story) so he'd need me to pick him up. I explained that it's too cold to walk Aden across the highway at six in the morning, and he said he'd go in late until it warmed up, or he'd find another plan, and I'd talk to my parents and see if they could help me out in the future -- it was too late to text them that night. Was that good enough? Of course not. He asked again about an hour later if I was home, and I SORT OF lied and said I was falling asleep and that's why I wasn't immediately texting him back. Well, I WAS sort of falling asleep, but it was in my friend's car while we all sat there chatting. And know what he did after I told him that? HE TEXTED MY SISTER TO MAKE SURE I WAS TELLING THE TRUTH. Of course he found out then that I was not home, so he proceeded to again call me irresponsible, saying he wanted to take Aden away from me/get child support from me/generally screw me over in any way he can. What a delight he is, eh?

All of this, of course, went on to make Boyfriend quite upset, because I was constantly texting last night and not telling him what was happening -- he seems to get annoyed when I tell him those things, because he has told me he doesn't want to help me with legal stuff anymore ... so I avoid telling him while it's happening. I also didn't want to talk about it with our friends in the car, so I kept quiet. That all resulted in Boyfriend getting upset with me, and we left on bad terms, which is always frustrating. I couldn't quite figure out what had really pissed him off, though: the texting, me not saying anything, or the entire situation ... so I avoided asking. He doesn't like being confronted when he's upset anyway, so that was probably the better choice at the time. We've talked now, though, and he does seem less peeved.

But of course, Aden's dad refuses to back off. He's still threatening me with everything he can, though I don't think he'll follow through, and he's trying to tell me that my life is going to suck. He's convinced that when I go to live with Boyfriend and our besties, we won't be able to live. He thinks that we all make what I do, when in fact, I make the least of all of us. He thinks we're all going to continue working where we do, when in fact, we are not. Boyfriend graduates from college on Friday and he has a job lined up. One of our besties has a semester left of college and then she'll be working too. And our other bestie makes the most of all of us where we work, and he won't be there forever either, as he's already gone to college. As for me, I'm hoping to go to school before too long, and then I'll make more too. So screw his opinion -- we'll be FINE. Who knows, we might even be better off than that jerk. No, I'm quite sure we will be, eventually, if not now. He thinks he'll be filthy rich compared to us, living at his parents house and never affording anything good. Obviously we won't be able to afford luxuries, but I don't think we'll be as financially destitute as Aden's dad.

Anyway ... it all keeps building up and there's no stopping it. Aden's dad is behind it all, and he needs to back off. He can't take me to court for any of this, and he knows that -- they won't see me as the evil piece of shit he sees me as, because I'm not the evil piece of shit he thinks I am. All of his opinions of me are not backed up by anything but his own hatred -- he has no REAL reason to think the way he does about me, so he has no way to back it up. It's all just the bitterness of a grouchy ex. That's the only reason he thinks the way he does about me. He knows damn right that I'm not evil or irresponsible or a bad influence or a whore or anything else of the sort.

He needs to grow up and see the situation for what it really is.