Happy Birthday to My Aden

My little man was born approximately four years, one hour and forty minutes ago.  Probably longer by the time I'm done writing this... but whatever.

I have a really hard time with Aden's birthday - not being able to see him on this day is hard.  And there's nothing I can even to do TRY and see him today, and that's even worse.

I feel like a lousy mother, not being able to get the time off... but I guess that's my fault for not thinking ahead and booking the evening off - then again, would his dad even have let me take Aden for any time on his birthday?  Now, sure, since he's being oddly nice to me lately... but when I would've been able to book the day off over a month ago... probably not.  I guess I was just hoping to end up with the evening off... and then the schedule got posted sooner than usual, and then it was out of my control.

But luckily, Aden's dad made an oddly nice move and invited both of us (yes, both of us) to Aden's birthday party tomorrow - but of course, I'm working.  He invited us too late for me to book the time off - and no one will ever take my shifts when I beg them to, even though I almost always say yes when someone asks me. But, that's besides the point.

I'm off work at three thirty tomorrow, and then Tyler and I are going straight to where the party is.  Aden's dad said they'll probably be swimming until dinner time, so I'm hoping we'll be able to see him for at least a few minutes... hug him, kiss him, etc.  His dad said we can come swimming... but that's not really my thing.  Had I gotten lucky enough to be closing that day, we would've gone for the cake/presents part... but not the swimming.

I definitely cried for a good twenty minutes last night about not being able to see Aden today.  I just got off the phone with him... but as usual, he wanted to talk for only a few minutes.  I told him happy birthday and he told me what Erin got him for his birthday.  Thanks bud.

I can't wait until the next weekend he's here - we got him his favourite video game, Skylanders, for here, and he'll get some other gifts from my family.  We're going to have a few people over and have cake.  It won't be a big swimming party like his dad's but it will be just as fun.

I just have to focus on that instead of being sad.