Everything

Things have been crazy.

Not in a bad way... just a million things have been going on since I last blogged, and I don't even know where to begin!

Things with Aden have been going amazingly.  His dad and I are FINALLY done living at the court house, and things are finally where I'd like them to be. Of course there is still room for improvement, but it's about as good as it can get right now, and that's really the most I could ask for.

I'm getting every other weekend, and things are now sort of... casual with other visits. Just whenever I'm free, I'll go there and see him. It'll be easier once I'm driving... but until then, this is working well. I have more freedom and it feels fantastic!

Aden is growing too fast though. He started preschool today, and I couldn't even be there to take him to his first day. I wasn't there, and his dad wasn't either... I feel awful. I feel like a really shitty parent, but I still know there was nothing I could've done to be able to take him myself. It's a shitty feeling... but I'm sure all single parents with divided time have to deal with stuff like this. I always tell other parents I know that the guilty feelings... those are signs that you're a good parent... because it shows that you love your child and you wish you could do your very best, when nobody is perfect, really. I tell that to other people, but I just can't feel that myself.

I feel like a better parent than ever lately... but sometimes I just don't.

Anyway... sadness aside, something I can be happy about!

Things at work have been awesome.

I finally got moved to the baby department, and as far as I can tell, I've proved that it was a good choice on my manager's behalf. I've been working my ass off and I've now got the hours to show for it. And more hours = better money, which makes for less stress for me, which feels AWESOME. I can afford to pay my bills, pay child support, AND I should be getting my first credit card in a few days here and I'll be able to pay for that too! It's an amazing feeling, being somewhat financially stable. Of course it could be MUCH better, but I'm not constantly feeling poor all the time, and that in itself is just awesome.

AND I started dating someone too!

His name is Tyler and he's amazing. We have so much in common, but not so much that it gets boring... and I feel like this is the best choice I've made... probably ever. It hasn't affected everything I've done for myself and for Aden in the last 9 months, and he knows damn well that he'll never come first over Aden, which... my last boyfriend (I'm sure it's obvious who I'm referring to) couldn't handle.

I actually met him almost a year ago now, through a friend of Richard's - the four of us went out for Richard's birthday and she was dating this guy. It was the first time I'd ever met that friend, but even to me she and Tyler did not seem like a good couple. We never saw each other again after that, because they broke up.

Until Hannah's birthday at the end of July.

As it turns out, Tyler is the friend of Mike's (her boyfriend) who she was always talking about - saying he was awesome and hilarious and she loved to hang out with him. Ty and I really clicked that night and started talking on facebook and exchanged numbers after that and everything.

Things went a little quickly after that, and we decided to take a risk and just be together - so far, it's working out amazingly.

I've met his friends and his mom, who LOVED me... I haven't felt so great in ages. I'm thrilled that I took the risk.

Course Richard isn't happy for me (he's jealous as hell), and for some reason my sisters aren't either... but everyone else is, so those who aren't can just... get over it!!

I'll try blogging more... promise... but I've been busy!

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